Everything Is Embarrassing / Sky Ferreira


everything is embarrassing // sky ferreira

Say I tried to give my best before
You wouldn’t have the chance to give me more
You’re only one step closer to the door

Breathe In / Japanese Wallpaper (ft. Wafia)


JAPANESE WALLPAPER (ft. Wafia) | Breathe In

The system at the restaurant is so broken. Unless you’re a lead server, you only get about 3-4 hours of work per day. When you make one small mistake, the higher authorities constantly zero in on you to find more. They focus on your bad points instead of the good. Nearly everyone there has a working mindset, while a select few, including me, come in to try and establish a friendly relationship.

I spoke with my coworker, Hesed, and we lamented on how we genuinely wanted to hang out with one another outside of work and towards the beginning when the restaurant opened, everyone had a similar mindset. But as time went on and people gained more power than others, that thought diminished. Unfortunately, Hesed will be leaving the restaurant in September to start school in Berkeley and I’ll probably have no one to really talk with anymore at the restaurant. Maybe that is why I really enjoy working at Splash more than Sup; because even though the pay is less, it feels like I’m working with a close knit family.

On a more positive note, I have finally hit more than 1000$ in tips today. However, that doesn’t include the amount I had spent/deposited before I started saving all my tips in my wallet. 


About four months ago, I found out that I have a half brother living in Pennsylvania. I was going through my dad’s photo album, when my mom pointed out a photo where my dad is holding a baby, telling me that that is my brother and the only photo we have of him. We didn’t know where he was, just that he and his mother were living somewhere in Pennsylvania. 

And then.

Three days ago, as my dad’s cousin was visiting, my mom revealed to me that my half brother and his family has been found. His mother wanted us to meet. He knows nothing about me or his real father or that his biological father has passed away many years ago. He is Jackson. 26 years old. Graduated from college. Working a managing position at a car dealership. Is a sports car aficionado. And even has a girlfriend. But most of all, he is the spitting image of my dad. 

Unfortunately, his mother for some reason wants to introduce me as his cousin, not his sister. She hasn’t even told him that his real father is dead. I don’t know when we will get the chance to talk. For now all I can do is just stare at his facebook, scroll the images of him, and picture my dad.

The events will unfold on its own time.





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